Hi.  Here is a blow-by-blow blog about the songs off ‘find me before i die a lonely death.com’.  Now you can stop emailing us and asking what the #@$% that song is about etc. But still keep emailing us.  Here it is, but i have called it my blow-blog…juvenile.

disclaimer: it’s kinda weird to write about my songs as it’s very rare that they are about one thing - the whole subject matter can change from line to line let alone from verse to verse to chorus to bridge to outro. So i kinda didnt write all the things down, as each topic can be another paragraph and i thought it would be nice if at least one person made it all the way through this blow-blog.
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“this little planet has taken a beating” well, that line aint a news flash i guess… this song is about a lot of different things, also it has my name in it, which is cool. I wanted my name in a song - always when I was a teen and heard a girls name in a song, I thought it was sooooo sooo, like whatever, like awesome, but no love-struck boy or experimental girl ever got heat-up song wise for a ruth. Hard to rhyme i think. So i thought i’m just gonna have to do it myself. Sometimes you have to save yourself. “C’mon sweet Ruthie let’s dance” is my pep-talk to me.  It’s my pep-talk to the world. Also, i was thinking can choice be compulsory or is that an oxy-moron?  If there was one idea to save the world and we all had to do it, and it worked - is that then okay?  I dunno, i never have answers, just long-winded questions. My favourite line in this song is “they say god likes a tryer, but he would prefer a winner”.

I’ve recently heard that this song/video has been banned from c4 day time tv due to the lines “knee-cap your legs” and “cut you in two”. Funny. How do gangsta-rappers and ho’s get away with all their shit on tv? Maybe I should change the words ‘cap’ and ‘cut’… tits’n’ass

after one of those american school shootings, i read that someone had yelled out “run, run, he’s re-loading his gun” and i thought that person was brave, and good to have around in a tight spot. They were telling everyone that now was their chance to run, to escape. I guess i stole that line really, for my chorus. The first verse is about an imaginary film i would like to see where the girl wins and the second verse is a scene from a real movie i saw called Army of Shadows. We thought this song would be a cool stop-motion video – like the one we made for ‘sum of us’, so now i am busy sculpting things out of plasticine again. The feeling of the chorus aims to be nothing as dramatic as being shot at but just about being brave for yourself when you need to be. When things or stuff or people are ‘re-loading their guns’